Only..

If only sorrows last for ages..

And greater feelings change my goal..

I play my rhymes on open stages

With no one listening at all..

Just bow each sentence to the end

Since it was written with no role,

So many stages to attend,

But way too few to lose control..

Cant act at all in this condition..

My dole ambition leaves a hole ,

Where love is begging for ignition..

I just abolished from my soul..

left the building

Just fuck you life..as i pretend

To dream and cry...forget to smile..

And id be thank full till the end

If only love would last a while..

A little longer ..i intend

Keep heart beating in same style

I kept it loving..dear friend ,

Ill end this cause..just not worthwhile..

Almost dead

Last sale for this old life i curse and treat..
While scraping deals and dripping poisoned wine ,

Malign true evil waits my soul to get

With promises that u will love me at a time..

Im crazy.. too intoxicated and upset..

To hear the devils sing.. in perfect rhyme

Not dead enough.. not ready to forget..

But see theyr master laughing in decline.

Just lie to me!..dont wake me up!.. not yet!

And let my dream be real..like ur mine..

Id die thousand times with one regret,

Until my soul will stop and draw the line,

And ill forget u also..press reset.

Stare at the glass and lie myself im fine

Comparing its divine true emptiness with mine..

go on.

How can i live this life so vile..

Reality i just defile

When every second i move on ,

Id rather stay inlove and con

Myself , just like a blindfold on ,

Just like a trickster i once knew..

And every spark that i once had

Is either either buried or just dead..

But live and well inside my head..

As crazy people often do

I dream in style ..i rest, and shred

All doubts of real life ..just beg

For one more word..or dialing tone

And one last dream ..to keep it on..

Afraid , filled with regrets and shame

I cherish you ..and cry alone..

Delusional that if ur gone

And if ur dead..ill die the same..

Why

I wonder why.. im dreaming on ,

Why i keep waiting on the phone..

And how much .. from ur heart ..ive won

Or lost ..cause im afraid to dial..

Just breaking down...i laugh alone

On jokes ..that u once told me while

I used to love u in denial ,

Played by ur sweet and hostile con..

Yet since ur gone.. i dream in style ,

It still goes on .. and feed upon

This lie that i inflict myself..worthwhile..

These words that just convict my soul to trial

And tho between us grows a mile ,

Another one where thousands grown ..

I close my eyes , just to postpone

Myself to cry , once more ..hold on..

Until i can forget ur smile..